Amy Patricia Le Sage

Please visit my darling brother Jeffery Le Sage's Site:-

http://jeffery-le-sage.gonetoosoon.co.uk/.

Thankyou.

My beautiful Baby Daughter Amy was born sleeping on Saturday 16th November, 1991.
I was so looking forward to being a mother to my darling baby but I never had the honour to be able
to do this. Amy would have been my first baby. I miss my Amy so much and my love for Amy grows
deeper each passing day.
I was 38 weeks into my pregnancy when one evening I lost three small amounts of water so I was told
by the hospital to go in the next morning. I was checked to see if my waters had gone but they said
that they had not. The hospital then put me on a heartbeat moniter and Amy was moving around so
much that they did not get a proper reading, so I was allowed home. On Sunday 10th November 1991,
when I woke up, I could not feel Amy moving and Amy always moved around alot. I went to the
hospital and the doctor scanned me but he could not find a heartbeat I could not believe what I was
hearing so he said that the machine must be broken. Then another scan machine was brought in to the
room and I was scanned again, I was praying to god that the doctor was wrong. Again there was no
heartbeat, so he tried on one more scan machine, then the doctor told me that he could not find a
heart beat, my baby had died in my womb, this was where I was supposed to protect my baby to keep
her safe and warm. The doctor just walked out of the room and I was left on my own too upset to do
anything except poor my heart out crying and feeling as my heart had just been ripped out. I was in
total and utter shock, I felt so empty and alone. My mum then came into the room a short while
later and she just broke down in floods of tears. I felt as if my whole world came crashing down
around me and my heart had broken in two. I just kept on thinking why has this happened to me, all I
wanted was to love my baby but Amy had been chosen to join all the other Little Angels in Heaven.
I had to be induced and after three attempts nothing happened, so I was told to go home with my
daughter inside me I just kept thinking that maybe they had made a mistake because I kept waiting
for Amy to move but I was living in false hope. When I was in hospital all I could hear were babies
crying on the ward and all I could think of is my poor baby should be doing the same. I would not
wish this on my worst enemy, It was like mental tourture. I was sent back to the hospital by the
midwife and I went into labour on saturday 16th November in the morning and I gave birth to my
daughter Amy in the afternoon at 2.25pm.
Amy weighed 7lb 10oz. I was longing for Amy to cry, but it was not to be. The cord was tight around
Amy's neck. I would not let the hospital do a post mortem Because I knew that it was due to the cord
that my daughter had died. I cannot put everything what happened down but I lost my daughter
through medical negligence, this is something that should never had happened. I wish I knew what
was happening to Amy inside me, then I could have done something to protect and help her. I felt so
numb and empty. I kept Amy with me overnight in hospital, and I just kept holding my baby I never
wanted to let her go. Amy was so perfect, her tiny hands and long fingers were so cute. I brought a
lovely frilly dress with a frilly hat and Amy looked absolutly beautiful, Amy is my Little Princess.
I also got a necklace with a heart broken in two so that Amy could be buried with it on. On one half
it says " together" and on the other half it says " forever", So when I wear my necklace our hearts
are joined together. I would do anything to be able to hold Amy again, I love my daughter so much.
When I was holding Amy a nurse came in to see if she could check my babies heartbeat, We could not
beleive this was happening surely they are told what has happened to the patients in each room. I
was just so upset and shocked at this and my family told her to get out of the room. I was just
seventeen when I lost Amy and I did not know how I was going to cope with the immense grief and
sadness which I felt inside me. I had a terriable feeling of emptiness. The next morning when I had
to leave the hospital I did not want to leave my baby on her own, but I had too. I had all this
overwelming love inside of me and I had no baby to Share all my love with. The day before Amy's
funeral I had Amy's coffin brought home to our house and I just laid there all night staring at my
poor baby's coffin, I just kept on thinking that I should have been looking at my baby sound asleep
in her cot. The day of Amy's funeral was a very, very sad day. Watching my dad carry Amy's tiny
white coffin will stay in my memory forever. I just could not bear the thought of leaving my baby
out in the cold, All I wanted to do was give Amy a great big cuddle and tell her that everything was
going to be ok. For days after the funeral I just laid next to Amy's grave. Amy was buried with my
brother, Amy's uncle Jeffery, I knew that my brother would look after Amy. This should have been
the most wonderful part of my life and my families life, instead it has left a huge hole in all our
hearts. All of my family love and miss Amy, Amy would have been my parents first grandchild. It is
so heartbreaking losing a child, you never get over your loss. My memories are locked in my heart
forever. Fifteen years have passed by since I held you in my arms, not a day goes by that I do not
think about you.
Until we meet again my darling Amy, all I can do is look at your pictures and stare up into the sky
looking for your bright shining star at night. You are now in the safe keeping of your Uncle
Jeffery and Great Grandad Len, Great Nannie Ada, and Darling Baby Chloe x x . You are now a
beautiful Angel in heaven. My sweet precious daughter I will always love you and I will hold you
again in my arms, then I can give you all the love that I have for you and we will never be apart
again. When I am feeling sad I have still got your blanket which I wrapped you in when you was born,
I lay down and cuddle your blanket because I feel that I am close to you. It would be a dream come
true if I could actually cuddle you darling.
God Bless my Dear Amy and all the Little Angels in heaven, who are so dearly missed. It is
comforting knowing that my daughter is with so many beautiful and lovely children. I wish that there
was something that I could do so that we could all have our precious babies back.
My family are so special to me and I thankyou all from the bottom of my heart for all the love and
support which you have all given me. I love you all loads.
I have been very lucky to have been blessed with two more children, a daughter Jade, who was the
spitting image of Amy when Jade was born and my son Billy. You are my world, I love you both so much
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God bless my darling Amy, Sweet Dreams, Rest In Peace, Goodnight my precious little angel.


Your ever loving Mummy.
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My little star
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We look into the sky at night
We see your star shining bright
We never heard you cry,
We never heard your laughter,
We never saw your sweet smile.
We think about you everyday
We love and miss you each passing day
We wish that you could be here with us
We know that you are so very deeply loved
We wish that we could see you again
We wish we could cuddle you and stroke your tiny hand
I want to wrap my arms around you and never let you go
I did not want you to leave but God wanted you as one of his angels, but I wanted to give you my
love as my daughter, I wish that you had not been chosen to leave me
I would have given anything to have you here with me
My darling daughter Amy, we have missed out on so much together. A loving family who think the
world of you and who had so much love to give you.
So sweet Amy until we meet again all I can do is dream of you and look into the sky at night to see
your star shining bright.

To My Baby.
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The one I can't hold, The one I won't see
Is what I'm told, I felt your little spirit living in me
Though such a short time, It was precious you see
My life seemed so perfect, My dream would come true, My own little bundle
Whether pink or blue, Everyone loved you
Just waiting to see, Would you look like your daddy
or exactly like me, These are the things
We will never know, Because God in Heaven
Said you needed to go, He must have his reasons
I can't understand, Did he come down to get you
Did he hold out his hand, Someday you can tell me
About his sweet embrace, As he took you from me
To that wonderful place, Until that day comes
Don't be afraid, Heaven is safe, For us it was made
I won't say goodbye, I can't because you see
You'll always be a part of me
I love you my baby, My sweet Little One
I'll see you again, When my time here is done.

Eternity.
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Could I have died so soon, So soon that my cries were silenced in your womb.
So soon that I'll never hold you or your hands caress my brow.
So soon that you never got to sigh and cry sweet tears of joy for your first child, your first born.
Could I have died so soon.
I suspect not, for I felt the passion of your love around me, as my heartbeats slowed, then
stopped.
As I lay motionless, I heard the misery of your cries that I would not be born alive and wondered,
Why?.
Today dear Mother you birthed me I was there, you was there. We all stood witness.
I heard your whispers that you love me.
I heard you tell each other how beautiful I was viewed in my eternal quietude.
I even felt your soft caress as you held me to you.
On this morn, mourn not for me, With eternal grace I have a name, I have a home, I have a life to
live through all eternity.

Little Angels.
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When God calls Little Children to dwell with him above.
We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love.
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child.
Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold.
God knows how much we need them and so he takes but a few.
To make the land of heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows will always be ' Goodbye '.
So when a Little Child departs, we who are left behind, Must realize God loves children.
Angels are hard to find.


My Angel
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My precious angel I will always love you,

Not a day passes by that I do not think of you,

You are forever in my heart and in my soul,

I miss you more than you will ever know,

As each year passes the pain still grows,

Of not being able to hold you,

Or kiss your tiny beautiful face,

My darling daughter I love you so,

I will never understand why you had to go,

I would have given you so much love,

You mean the world to me,

Why oh why does god take tiny children,

This I will never know,

When here on earth I need you so much,

I still need you after all these years,

The pain still hurts, I still cry,

I never got to sing you a lullaby,

Or keep you safe and warm,

I would have cuddled you a million times,

I would have given you so much love,

My sweetheart why did you have to go,

I needed you more than god above,

Why did he choose you, god knows just how much I love you,

God will never know how much he hurt me,

My heart is torn in two,

The only time my heart will be complete,

Is the day I join you in heaven,

So sweet Amy, till that day comes,

My love will grow stronger, an overwhelming love,

I know that you are with me,

I wish I could see how beautiful you are,

I wish god did not take precious children,

To be with him in heaven above,

Heaven will still be a beautiful place,

Without God needing tiny children,

God has so many angels,

Why does he need our darling children,

If I could bring you all back,

To be with all your loving family's,

Who desperatly want you back,

I would do it in an instant,

Because the hurt is just to much,

For any parent to take,

God if you can hear me,

Please do not take any more tiny children,

The parents need them so much more,

But for some strange reason god needs,

Little angels to dwell with him above,

So till that day comes my precious baby,

Till we see each other again,

I will keep you locked in my heart,

Forever and ever.

With lots of love Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Tears
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If tears could build a stairwell,
and memories were a lane.

I would walk right up to heaven,
and bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye.

You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.

My heart still aches in sadness,
and secret tears still flow.

What it means to lose you,
no one will ever know.


Sweetdreams sweetheart
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You are so dearly missed
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God Bless Our Little Princess
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Thankyou to everyone who has taken the time to kindly leave messages and tributes on My Daughter
Amy's memorial page. It means so much to us all.

XXXX IN XXXX LOVING XXXX MEMORY XXXX OF XXXX AMY XXXX PATRICIA XXXX LE XXXX SAGE XXXX

{{{{ ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS FOR ETERNITY }}}}

XXXX STAY XXXX BY XXXX MY XXXX SIDE XXXX FOREVER XXXX SWEETHEART XXXX

{{{{ YOU ARE SUCH A SPECIAL LITTLE ANGEL, SHINING BRIGHTLY IN THE SKY }}}}

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